There sure is something to gain
Paid too much with too much pain
A bitter recognition
The future is already lost
From the very beginning
Meaningless time in the meaningless days
Life means only still not dead yet
Neither meaningless to live on nor to die
Lifeless lives of undead
Making the meal just to be materials of shit
Pull around for making the money for meal
Breathing every breath just to sigh
Laughing just to cry later after all
Too tenacious to forget it all
Too cautious to have fan
Too cowardly to be well at ease
Too fool to be smart
Born to lose, underdog by birth
The world never turn for me, not at all
Nothing to live for or die for
Dead inside, my life is stillbirth
On a vast expance of the dark
Ocean under the starlit sky
In each course the ships sail across
Passing each other and comunicate vaguely
With flickering lights and distant cry
Hello, good-bye
Darkness and silence on boundless sea again
Solitude is the natureness it should be
Years ago, way far back in time
This ship is launched at this very day
No celemony nor champagne now
The ship adrifts on the dark ocean
There is nothing, nothing no matter
However great the achievement you attain
There is only one thing you can do when you died
Feed the maggots by your body 6 feet beneath the ground
Although your name were carved in stone
Nobody remind you after a thousand years passed
I made every mistake a man can make
But learned no lesson everyone learns
I tried every path bring me to dead ends
But missed the way everyone goes
It is too late to go back
Too late to start it over
Sleepless and listen to the sound
Sound of the heart beats in vain
Liken the clock strikes the hour
In the ruin without resident
When the clock's spring runs down
Time runs out unknowingly
Inside the dead womb it echoes
Heartbeat of an age old fetus
If I can find some reasons
To live or reason to die
The day becomes my birthday
However short the time remains
If I can find some reasons
To live or reasons to die
That is the day I define
As the date of my birth
Would you celebrate the day
I come into existence
Out of the unborn into life
And then I can die